Honestly I don’t know what it is that has gotten into me lately but I don’t like it. I wish that I could be the type of girl that guys admire, the type of girl that makes the guys wish they had her, the type of girl that everyone knew she was worth it.
I love being single but I miss having someone to talk to, someone to spend my days thinking about and someone to get excited about.
It’s been years since I’ve had butterflies, I always have crushes but never actually like someone.
There are times where I convince myself that there is something wrong with me, why is it that guys that do talk to me are immature players who have these lame ass lines that I’ve heard 100 times before. I am not trying to have Prince Charming come into my life and swoop me off my feet and we ride off into the sunset. I simply want someone who is going to be worth my time and won’t fuck up on me.
I absolutely hate when people say, “oh you must have a bf, oh you probably have guys asking you out left and right, etc.” like no I haven’t had a bf in year, and I don’t have any guys asking me out. Thanks for the reminder.
I am consistently reminding myself that God has this plan for me, to just be patient…but how long is he going to make me wait.